Chapter 13

The next week was the funeral. The girls didn't look very pretty because it had been about 3 weeks since they had passed away but I kissed them and loved them and told everyone they were beautiful anyways. It's going to be really hard for me to not want to hold them in my arms. My mom was thankfully able to make it. The funeral was beautiful. I gave a talk on both of them and growing up with them and then my grandparents each talked. All of the children from Anna and McKenzie's classes came up and sang a sweet song about how we will remember them always and they will be in our heart. After that we had to say the final goodbye's and we took them to their burial sites. It was a really rough day but it was absolutely beautiful and I'm glad we were able to do that.
The next day was my mom's evaluation. Paige came with me to find out why my mom has been there so long.
“Well, we have been doing multiple cat scans and blood tests and we have found that she has cancer. We have a couple of options. We can start radiation and then move on to chemotherapy or we can do nothing and see if it goes away or let her pass away,” the doctor said.
“Well you just asked me the stupidest question. Of course we are going to go through with radiation and chemo...let's start tomorrow! Right now if we have to. I want to get my mom better!” I said probably too loudly.
“Well it's probably going to take a couple of months to get her in to the program. Would you like her to stay here in the hospital or go home?”
“OF COURSE I'M GOING TO HAVE HER COME HOME! AND WHY CAN'T SHE JUST START NOW I DON'T GET IT!”
“Calm down. Your mother is in the next room you can go get her and she can go home right now. I understand you are upset but there isn't really anything I can do to change this right now. I hope you have the best of times and your mother knows she has cancer. If you need anything I have an email address you can email me at and I will answer you as soon as possible. Good luck.”Walking out with my mother was refreshing and that night I tucked her in just like she used to do to me. She was really weak and frail looking. I really didn't like that. Jake stopped by and Paige, Jake, and I watched a Christmas show over some hot chocolate, even though it was July. It was a blast and at 1 o'clock they left and I went to bed and woke up to Emily screaming only 45 minutes later. She was having terrible flashbacks and I didn't know what I could do to help her. It hurt me to have to see her like that. She slept with me and we woke up at 7 to surprise our mom with some pancakes in bed and a warm bubble bath. Luckily, with that nice comfortable bed and warm house and a long nights sleep, she was able to get enough strength to walk around the house. With all this stress I forgot that there was only one week until Jake was leaving. SHOOT!